A few nights ago, a day before an exam, my family had a late dinner and already had my plate made, but I took an early night to wake up early to study and thus did not eat dinner. Then I woke up at around 4:00AM to study for this exam. I've somehow managed to fall into the path of putting this exam above my family and my health. Is this right? NOPE. Did I think it was right at the time? SOMEHOW MY BRAIN TICKED THE YES BOX FOR THIS.

I put all my time into an academic subject and it didn't turn out the way it should have. I felt drained for the few days after the exam because I was playing catch-up on my sleep. This made me realize that exams SHOULD NOT be put at a higher level than your family and health. Life as a college student sometimes has me reversing those roles; exams left and right I can't believe I'm not an exam ( see what I did there like the slogan "I can't believe I'm not butter... no... okay carry on reading ignore that hahaha)
Actual photo of my brain when I saw a question during the exam.

As I think back at my grade and basically have thousands of metaphorical deaths inside me every time I look at it I think to myself: By some miracle it is not the end of the world. The world is doing it's rotations and I still have a heartbeat that beats 232894320 times faster every time I look at my exam grade.

Although this exam didn't turn out as planned, I should see what I can learn from it. I should study every week the material not just cram it into 48 hours of studying. The brain is like a sponge, and like a sponge it can only absorb so much. By looking at my exam today, I realized how the professor phrases questions and how to prepare for the next exam. My study habits will now include knowing how to answer correctly instead of falling into the trap of being between B and C. (As is always the goal knowing the answer instead of playing the game of which one LOOKS better)

Instead of feeling upset, I would feel happy with my next exam because after seeing how the professor phrases her questions and the ways I could improve my study habits, I will go into the next exam confident in the knowledge I absorbed. And that's really the goal, not the letter grade, but actually understanding what's being taught.

Sahara x





Flowers are given to me
only one day of the year.
It makes me wonder
if they only think
of me then,
and not everyday of the year.

~ This poem is written through the perspective of a Mother on Mother's Day~

Sahara x

Anyone have that favorite TV show they wait to see every single week? It's probably the only reason I look forward to Monday: New Week = New Episode. One of my favorite shows is Reign. I laugh, I cry, I smile, I cry some more and that's the best way to describe the process of me watching Reign- my emotions are constantly on a roller-coaster.  It is a historical fiction about Queen Mary of Scotland. Although there are times where Reign can be problematic, I always find myself sitting in the same spot eagerly waiting for the next episode because of the cliffhanger they left on. I think this goes with most shows, ending with a cliffhanger because they know you're going to want to know what happened next. 

Although I find the show at times problematic, I am already attached to the characters that not watching it isn't really an option. I used to watch The Vampire Diaries and Pretty Little Liars, and I stopped watching both for 2 reasons. Personally, The Vampire Diaries after Season 3 just went down hill, plot lines just need help and I would be more than happy to offer plot lines without plot holes and well.... logic. Pretty Little Liars just kept getting repetitive and after the third or fourth season I stopped watching; A kept trying to find them while I was trying to find a reason why I was still watching. So what does Reign have that the other shows didn't? Well to give some back story, I watched the first 1 and a half seasons in 2 days which coincidentally I was supposed to be doing a 10 page paper. I would say that the actors that portray the characters have kept the show alive entirely. The plot lines at times annoy me but the way it is acted out makes it work; the actors make me want to come back and relive what they are acting out. 
" Whatever the future brings, you are my light." 
- King Francis
good king francis blessing TV's everywhere - literally the best!

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Any shows that keep you glued to the screen?

Sahara xo